I used to watch Degrassi on The N when my parents weren’t around, to see the tan boy who would say he was gay, as if that were something that was okay to share. He was the first time I saw two boys kiss, lying there on my stomach, head two feet from the screen. I hadn’t known until it happened, this was what I was waiting to be. I kept my thumb on the channel-up button afraid a parent would walk in on the aftermath, two boys standing a little too close.