Xiaogui / 小鬼

This is a different kind of dark than the one beneath a bedcover, more like the one inside a fist, a dark where we can’t see our own arms and can pretend for a while that we haven’t yet been booted from our mothers by that god who gets paid to kick girl out of the womb...



My body no longer

as if we could lay ourselves down at our own feet /
to mourn, as if we could shuck skin like a snake, slide away /
naked and new, some born-again eve.


In The Life

Even currently our joy is clouded by police brutality, the killings of black transwomen and more. My photos reverse the tradition of darkness in a very literal sense.


Insertion

Q-tips; under-the-tongue thermometers; ear thermometers; once, a meat thermometer; a Neti pot, swiftly rejected; toothpicks; anal beads; lollipops from the doctor’s office; lollipops from the bank drive-thru; upwards of 57,000 pounds of food; 43.5 gallons of alcohol; needles; the lip of a pipe...




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in the room that it happens

in the room / i am prescribed / anger / unemployment / broken / back / doors / hooded
/ property / value / algorithmic // blackness


Queen of All Spaces

Our dining room table is the queen of all spaces in our home.  It carries our fears and secrets.  It offers us a place to eat our meals, sit, rest, and reflect.


a black nerd’s poisson processing

my people die like a poisson process. i listen to the rain count bodies
while the thunder weeps with me.


follow the moon

maybe i wake and feel the wind move through my body
/ but she reminds me what love lives in this skin, / says stay. says stay anyways.


My Own Private Idaho

Their presence, as out gay boys, created a space and time where there was seemingly none in my life.